240 - Starting Again

I've been giving a lot of thought to what keeps me from managing food intake and I think I hit on something last night...

I can count on food. (There's "tons" of irony in this statement.) In a very emotional way if feels as if food is always there for me to lean on. It's convenient. It's consistent. It's comforting. And, I should add cunning, caloric and cloudy.

Over the course of the past two years I have meandered my way from 303 lbs to 227 lbs and not creeping back up to 240 lbs. Being honest with the numbers (and this blog) are part of my attempts at a new approach.

Taking the weight off has not been easy and in a sense, it has been. I've done the lemonade fast successfully at least twice (last year for 14 days and this year for 30). Great results both times and then BAM! I need to learn how to live day-to-day with food again.

I'm smart. I know a great deal about nutrition, diet and exerciser. I can do this. The question becomes "Why don't I?"